2021.12.09 07:39 usmlematerialsnet Biochemistry Handwritten Notes For Usmle Step 1
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2021.12.09 07:39 jusanotherthrowra I cheated on my girlfriend and now she can treat me harshly and irrationally.
Sorry for length. i’m bad at this.
So my gf (19) and I (20M) have been together officially for a few months now. However we’ve been talking and spending everyday together since January 2, 2021. I was always I guess in simple terms a fuckboy type. I never wanted a girlfriend, no matter WHO the girl was or what we were and I was always very upfront to them about it. But this girl was something different. She’s definitely matured me & has taught me a lot of lessons I now realize young boys should probably learn. Just regular life shit and respect and all that. She’s made me want to commit despite so many other girls not being able to do it for me and I care for & love her a lot.
However, she has BPD. Borderline personality disorder. It doesn’t show negatively towards me unless extremely extremely triggered - and admittedly I have played a part in that a lot in the past. She’s always been clear she can’t take lies. Any type of lie whether it be the smallest thing or the biggest thing. She told me of her previous relationships where the guy would do something to break her trust RIGHT before they became serious & it plays out the same every time. Despite this she never really showed any trust issues toward me. We were just fwb for a while and even then she wouldn’t even be the slightest bit jealous or anything. She could know everything i was doing with a girl and still react normally as a friend would and just wait for me to come to her to smoke or something. Well she started doing a lot for me and we ended up agreeing on exclusivity monthsssss in even though we weren’t together. I’ll also admit that she made it clear she wasn’t trying to pressure me to just mess with her in the slightest and said she’d understand and have no animosity if i chose to do otherwise, just that she wouldn’t stick around for it. Yeah it felt like an ultimatum to barely 20yr old me but I realized it was her being genuine. Welp let’s just say I fucked up. I text dozens of other girls, linked them, just all the shit except actually oral or fucking them. I’d still spend everyday with her and her being insanely observant (even though i’m infamously good at being private as deemed by everyone ever) and smart, she’d always quickly catch onto something. I feel bad now writing this because she’d never snap on me or yell or just anything before when she’d find things even when she KNEW i was lying and i’d typically be able to maneuver my way out of it using the typical douchebag gaslighting. Well after she caught me red handed AFTER we just had a 14hr deep ass talk over this a week prior, i realized i needed to get my act right, make her my girl and make it up to her.
I made her mine in August (a few weeks after the last incident) and it was taking her a lot to process it all. I could’ve been a better boyfriend during that time as she fell into a depression and i wasn’t prepared onto how to handle anyones emotions rlly despite her trying to talk to me. All this makes me feel shitty looking back on but i’m willing to be 100% accountable. Well, we slowly became extremely toxic. This girl who’d never argue with me (yet still stand up for herself and all), never yell, never seem jealous - any of it became ALL of it. It’s not like she’s outright crazy or anything and a lot of things I can understand her POV but she and I just argued CONSTANTLY. over ANYTHING. i could tell she was getting drained of me as she would try to break up but could never follow through likely due to her attachment issues we’ve spoken about. We started to meet all the toxic relationship criteria and she’d also point this out all the time saying it isn’t working. Well i’m a dumb boy and clearly i didn’t want it to end especially not due to small arguments that were handled badly and me being dumb and disloyal in the past.
So flash to a couple weeks ago. We had an argument and she just ended up telling me to leave her apartment (she has her own place and i go to uni not far from it) and after i said something along the lines of never opening up again (exaggerating out of anger) she said “okay well i’m not going to be with someone who outright admits they’ll never open up to me again” and so this signals another breakup. I knew it wasn’t for real but i felt 60/40 sure it wasn’t fit was. Well she made a comment that i took as she was going to mess with someone else (later found out that wasn’t the case) and so FUCKING STUPIDLY text some girl i used to have sx with asking for head. she asked if i had a girl and i said she just dumped me. the girl said not tonight but to hit her up again when i wanted to actually fck. i truly never planned on actually meeting up with her or anything and by the next morning i felt bad and unadded her on snap. Me and my gf made up and i even asked if she text or linked another guy to which she said no and didn’t even think to & when she asked me the same i said no although i thought about it after her comment. we eventually worked it all out and planned to have a serious talk about us to fix shit maturely. Well my karma came around & as SOON as i parked on the street outside her apt, she saw the DM the girl i had text the night before sent her. Oh my did my girl SNAP. i didn’t mind she had the right to. she stormed out to my car with no coat and was kicking and screaming when she got in as soon as i confirmed it. She broke up with me & promised we’d never get back together. Despite this i was determined and i knew she wouldn’t feel uncomfortable if i put forth effort to get her back as we’ve talked about these things plenty before. She told me she doesn’t think it’s smart to get back, that we’ll be even more toxic as she resents me even more, that she gave me too many chances, that she feels dumb - all reasonable things. she told me she doesn’t even think she could control her angry thoughts or “splitting” around me anymore and that she doesn’t wanna be that person towards me.
And look! Her words came true! I’ve been back with her slowly since thanksgiving and she’s snapped over the stupidest things, is insecure over other girls, and just overall has been extremely toxic. she apologizes and reiterates that maybe this isn’t a good idea bc of this type of thing but i wanna stick it out regardless. after all she was so sweet before i started a pattern of lying to her. And so i guess after this long ass post, my question is do you guys think she’ll ever be able to go back to even close to the way she was when we met? or that she’ll eventually stop being toxic as i keep up my end of the deal to be the best i can be and acknowledge all my faults?
i know most comments will say to end this but i promise we’re not as tumultuous as this post seems. i wont leave her and honestly i don’t think she’d leave me at this point so any advice besides reddits obvious and typical breakup is rlly helpful. i also know i was a huge POS and probably deserve her being mean but it still affects me.
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2021.12.09 07:39 sparcleaf22 Swans to scout future stars during Women's Summer Series
2021.12.09 07:39 NDRRSS NTF game: Foxes vs Chickens chasing eggs
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2021.12.09 07:39 mlville88 Comprehensive plan - but ortho told me I only get a year of refinements?
After being on here a while I was convinced it was 5 years only to go for my final scan today for my retainers where they told me I have refinements for up to a year only, I was so taken back that I didn’t question it but now I’m really angry - does it differ from orthodontists?
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2021.12.09 07:39 NewsElfForEnterprise The Metaverse Is Coming, so Buy Matterport and Invest in Your Digital Double Now
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2021.12.09 07:39 IrrelevantHooman3549 No no, smoke has a point
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2021.12.09 07:39 Traditional-Panda-65 me: r puffin them: r cow pls hurry they waiting
2021.12.09 07:39 WhiteUnicorn3 Tomorrow the boys are in town! BUGGED OUT! London 10/12/21
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2021.12.09 07:39 pac03 Not sure where life is going (20M)
I’m 20 now and I just have no idea how to do anything that’s important for adults. I drive, work part time, and go to college but I don’t know what to do after. I’m barely passing my college courses and my hs gpa was below average. I understand this isn’t the end of the world but it keeps giving me this underlying feeling that I have failed at life. The feeling of not growing old with a family or not having successful life terrifies me. What’s next? I’m hoping for advice on how to improve my current situation or mental health
TLDR: I’ve been a pretty mediocre person and feel that it’s never going to improve. Don’t know how to function as an adult
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2021.12.09 07:39 Necessary-Tank198 🏗️PLGR's vision is to accelerate the adoption of DeFi apps in people’s daily financial activities.✅ 📌This will be done by reducing the exposure to interest rate volatility for borrowers/lenders.✨
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2021.12.09 07:39 YukiRunran Kowloong Fanart Contest entry
2021.12.09 07:39 Silvroci Need some advice on the decision to sell a 2000 Honda Integra.
Greetings Auto, apologies if this is not the right sub for these kind of content as I'm new to this side of reddit.
With the help of a mate, I managed to get a 2000 Honda Integra at just under 200000km milage (210000km now) at the end of last year for around 3k AUD. I wanted a nice cheap car back then so my mate recommended it to me after seeing it on a facebook listing.
Now I am doing alot better financially so I've been looking into getting a new car. My mate advised I keep the Integra since it's rare, but I just want to know what others think.
I'm not really a car person so I don't really understand car histories, parts, or the lingo so please do your best to simply explain your opinion so I can understand the bigger picture.
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2021.12.09 07:39 Stella_Hill_Smith Transfer the Save Game to the PS5
I plan to buy the game on PS5, but I don't like missions. I just want to drive around.
Unfortunately, the maps in the 3 games are not completely open at the beginning.
Hence my question: Can I take over a save game from another player who has completed the game 100% and transfer it to the PS5, so that all islands are navigable in every game?
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2021.12.09 07:39 VaIIeria Why is it that Instagram is questioned when it is an individual choice to use it and how to use it? Like, isn't it a personal responsibility?
I've never had any negative experiences with Instagram so I find this hard to understand. But I do know that some struggling with mental health are affected in a bad way.
Feel free to broaden my perspective if you don't mind. I don't really understand this since I feel like it is an individual responsibility to use the app and regulate the way to use it and not the creator's responsibility if it isn't about sh, misinformation, propaganda and such obvious negatively impacting posts.
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2021.12.09 07:39 hongrehhonk 【ENG SUB】Rune Factory 4 Special - Dylas' Seiyū, Tomokazu Sugita-san's Voice Comment
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2021.12.09 07:39 More_Development_200 I've been wanting to have this piece for such a long time and I finally had the chance to grab it.
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2021.12.09 07:39 AutumnsFa11 New Japanese Org "IGZIST" Sign Ex-BlackBird Ignis Roster
2021.12.09 07:39 PM_ME_SSTEAM_KEYS haha👌yes
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2021.12.09 07:39 StandardGur1202 joseadisimo
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2021.12.09 07:39 abenhansen LF: Any pokemon with pokerus. FT: nothing special
2021.12.09 07:39 RinMichaelis Me vs My Racist Teacher
Summary: My name is Tamika Parker and my racist teacher is Mrs. Louis. Mrs Louis is my art teacher. She would never answer any questions when I raise my hand. She would passively-aggressively give me a bunch of broken markers. Why would a teacher have a bunch of broken markers in the first place? She would go well out of her way to deny my existence. But ironically, that just attracted too much attention from all of the classroom, and everybody in the class took notice. Everybody in the classroom ended up talking about the racist teacher going well out of her way to deny the existence of the black student and went to the principle about her. After all, going out of your way to avoid a person is a form of giving that person attention. And in the end, she ended up facing disciplinary action over her behavior.
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2021.12.09 07:39 qddghy ファミコンの乳死去
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2021.12.09 07:39 AXKXL Ha y'know i make art but i do make deez nuts XD
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