Broken up but still having arguments with him in my head

2021.12.02 00:43 elldee123 Broken up but still having arguments with him in my head

Logically I know that it is completely unacceptable to be in a relationship where a partner criticizes, devalues, invalidates, and manipulates you. I think about some of the awful things that happened and I can’t fathom how I allowed myself to be subjected to certain behavior or how I made certain things somehow ok. I think about me crying during sex or having him end the relationship and then act as if everything was ok the next day or him calling me abusive or blocking me from social media when we lived together or not speaking to me for hours long car rides when he was angry at me and I feel so incensed but also so full of shame. I am so hurt by him and so disappointed with myself. How did I let myself be treated this way? Why did I hold onto the good parts and minimize these terrible moments?
I would be heartbroken to hear that someone I love was being treated the way I was by my partner. But even now that we are broken up I’m still having to work so hard to convince myself I made the right decision and to justify my boundaries. On some level I recognize I deserve better and know I cannot go back (even though I miss him desperately), but I feel like I have to keep reminding myself over and over again that these things weren’t OK. “You can’t be with someone who constantly threatens to leave.” “You’re allowed to talk to your friends and family and therapist about problems in your relationship.” “It’s not ok for someone you love to call your life shitty or to say he’s cutting off all emotion towards you.” It’s almost like I’m reliving the arguments we had before when I would try and stand up for myself but he would shut me down or get even more upset and dismissive. Except now I’m just making those arguments in my own head. There’s no one here for me to convince. I feel like a child beating my fists and throwing a tantrum. Maybe I’m trying to convince myself that my feelings are valid? Why can’t I just stand strong in my boundaries and my self-worth? Wondering if anyone can relate…
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2021.12.02 00:43 starcollector Gluten-free sufganiyot (jelly donuts) for Chanukah!

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2021.12.02 00:43 PurpleCreek The game is lost the moment we do people...

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2021.12.02 00:43 Disenchanted1982 Favorite person

Have any of you told your favorite person that’s what they are? If you have what was their reaction? I’ve considered it with my fp for a couple reasons depending on my current state of mind. One of them is to chase him away. To save him from me. But the other side is because I want him to understand me better. I guess I’m just curious how it turned out for others and whether it’s worth it or not.
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2021.12.02 00:43 ambrelleexists Dreams

I know many have posted about their odd dreams while on lexapro. I have had a reoccurring theme lately of inception dreams. I had a dream and i “woke up” to tell my boyfriend about it. but when i “woke up” I was in another dream. I finally actually woke up and shared the last bit of what i was saying on the dream before but he was confused because he didn’t hear all of it, because the first part was told while still in a dream. Have you experienced these inception type dreams? I’ve also had a lot of shorter “skit” type of dreams. all are so vivid and realistic.
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2021.12.02 00:43 TriggerDaTeddy Core Class Hot Rod

Sorry bro. Core Class Hot Rod? Nahnahnahnahnah... that thing is at its maximum budget constraint. Looks like they took the bad boy and filtered him through the CHUGGIUM generator, hah! He's so chuggy! Lol! Hollow legs, bad arm proportions, ugly head, and the sword looks like it's from a dollar store knockoff! The alt mode also looks the same way! Sorry bud, opinion dismissed, I win, you lose. Your trash Hot Rod toy is on maximum budgetarium and addicted to chuggium. Byebye!
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2021.12.02 00:43 Dampish10 SBC announces Stock Split! (Literally giving you free shares) and keeping dividend the same! Details in the comments

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2021.12.02 00:43 Iamwhatiam101 🙇‍♂️I bet you in an instant it will go down below red 😬🤷‍♂️

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2021.12.02 00:43 KneeGrowsToes Imgur

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2021.12.02 00:43 Emuc64 TV gamers, sound via TV speakers or external speakers?

When playing some retro gaming on a CRT TV, do you now game using only the TV speakers for that authentic look and sound? Or do you use external speakers for better sound at the cost of how you may have heard it back in the day?
I only had a little TV and used the TV speakers growing up. Today, I use the TV out to pipe the L/R audio over to a receiver and floor standers for that sweet Stereo sound. In particular, the SNES and PS1 games, like Donkey Kong Country and Metal Gear Solid, sound pretty amazing.
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2021.12.02 00:43 theelephant7 Question for professionals, please.

I want to start doing make up on other people for photoshoots and artistic designs, so I need a good kit for not only a variety of looks and skin types, but also for a variety of artistic styles too. What are some good makeup kits or starter kits I can get? Does quality of makeup matter to you for make up that is not for long term wear? Any help would be appreciated.
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2021.12.02 00:43 charlesebastian how to move on from someone?

i was in a relationship with someone for nearly 9 months. i woke up this morning to a text that said he wanted to end it. it’s my first relationship, I’ve never found someone that loved me as much as I loved them, nor someone who accepted me and all the flaws I come with.
unfortunately i belong to a few different minority groups, I don’t want to go into that part of my life, but my up bringing revolving those parts of me have been nothing short of awful.
he left me because he wants a ‘high school experience’ (aka he wants to fuck and do reckless things). i was taken out of school at age 10 and didn’t get to return until this year. i missed out on so much development and growth, that hearing that phrase alone makes me want to scream. i don’t know why having a good education and having trustworthy friends just isn’t enough. it’s all i have wanted for over a decade now, and even then he still wants more.
i have no idea how to move on from this. i don’t know how to cope day to day without at least messaging hi to him. i don’t know how to expect to ever find someone again. he sees me as me, not someone with a disability. or a medical issue. or the other 100 hundreds things wrong with me. im turning 18 in a few weeks and now, i really don’t want to. he was the only good thing i had going for me. i did everything i could to keep him ‘mine’, and it’s gone in a matter of hours.
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2021.12.02 00:43 juicelizzo High off my rocker.

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2021.12.02 00:43 mango-potato8808 Hi I am wondering if I should upgrade my pc with a 1050ti or a 1060

My specs are ryzen 3 3200g 8gm ram ( I will upgrade don’t worry) and the cpu is over clocked
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2021.12.02 00:43 tonys_357 How (CEI) Camber Energy Fits Into My Investment Strategy ...

- not financial advise - not a financial advisor - for entertainment and educational purposes only -
This is what I do. I am not recommending that anyone does what I do.
I do me. You do you.

1 - Never invest more than you can afford to lose
-> never use margin - markets can be irrational longer than you can remain solvent
-> whatever your investments are, you need to be comfortable enough that you can sleep at night
(ie: you've got zero chance to make rational decisions with little to no sleep)

I only invest what I'm comfortable with. If it dips 75%, I won't panic. If I lose it all, I'm still OK. 

2 - Know your investment - or better yet - know WHY you invest in a particular venture

I've researched CEI, so I know the story. In my mind the story is one of Company Turn-Around because of a New CEO who is Cleaning House. The past management was incompetent / corrupt / or some combination of both. James Doris was doing well, cleaning up shop, and the company got attacked by Kerrisdale Capital (short seller). 

3 - know your risks - ie: suppose you are wrong?
If I'm wrong, I don't lose too much. The stock is cheap. 

4 - understand your upside, and downside potential (reasonable targets), and time frame
(expected earnings, expected price targets),
The stock was almost $5 before the KC short attack, so once that is disproved, it should easily get there again. From there, momentum can take it to $10-$15. Their oil & gas, carbon-capture, clean-energy platform can propel it to $20-$30 long term. 

5 - Every buyer has a seller - understand who is or may be on the OTHER SIDE of your investment, and why THEY did the opposite
Short Sellers are the other side - they make money by inducing people to panic-sell a stock. 

6 - don't FOMO or PANIC, but recognize FOMO and Blood in the Streets

7 - Consider buying when there is blood in the streets - even if it is your own

8 - Listen to the media - they'll usually tell you what NOT to do
10 - there are only 3 directions it (stocks, crypto, etc) can go :
up down sideways 
Have a plan for all three directions ?

- not financial advise - not a financial advisor - for entertainment and educational purposes only -
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2021.12.02 00:43 Key_Height1252 What Can I Do Now?

So my friend group has a inside joke where we flick the hat off one of our friends, (who tbh no one really likes that much) and it’s kind of funny to watch him react. But today I did it, and I missed and he responded with a “no” that sounded like he didn’t really care about so I went for it again. I got it.
After I had hit the ground, he pins me up against the door by my neck and hoodie, and now very seriously says “no means no, and when I say no, I mean it.” I didn’t know what to do in this situation we awkwardly stand there in front of everyone until he leaves.
He has always been ruled by his anger, and his cocky attitude, but is this my fault? Any help would be welcome.
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2021.12.02 00:43 VolkerTechno Sterling Moss & Anne Savage - Gomper Stomper [2004]

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2021.12.02 00:43 ImAnRedditPosterPOG Every homeless person in the world share a same house, the street.

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2021.12.02 00:43 large-tool-bag What men really want

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2021.12.02 00:43 96beyondce69 I am completely shocked by this! I was expecting much lower. I didn’t watch and don’t even plan on watching but I’m surprised. Good for you Porsha.

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2021.12.02 00:43 MacManus14 Poor General Krillov...

Last week General Krillov apparently materialized from nowhere only to lose a battle against the fledgling Bolshevik regime, and this week he gets erased from history altogether! The dude can't catch a break.
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2021.12.02 00:43 jvtonello My Prediction for the Upcoming Brazilian Presidential Election in 2022 – Based on my Garbage Opinion ;/

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2021.12.02 00:43 Doodles_sparkles \\SPOILERS ON DSMP LORE// So on Twitter I decided to make a doodle of my version of ghostboo…but sorta like mimikyu from Pokémon :P

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2021.12.02 00:43 SauceCarlicio [XBOX] [H] Grey Dune [W] 350

Can Repeat
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2021.12.02 00:43 Lovelyhairedpianist Couples who share(d) a living space during lockdowns: what did you learn about your relationship while you were in lockdown together? What did you learn about living with your partner?

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