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My (20F) first kiss last year was an ENORMOUS deal to me. So did my first real crush over the summer. My first sex last week was not. This is concerning to me.

2021.11.28 02:57 QueBonitoEsVolar My (20F) first kiss last year was an ENORMOUS deal to me. So did my first real crush over the summer. My first sex last week was not. This is concerning to me.

I (20F) grew up homeschooled and somewhat isolated and sheltered. Then, when I finished my high school credits, I did a gap year in a Muslim country where I didn't really have the opportunity to try dating or socialize like an American teenager, and then after that I was quarantined for a year due to COVID-19. Because of this, although I was 19 last year, I was a freshman in college with absolutely zero experience with dating or even navigating most social situations. I was a bit behind.
At some point during my freshman year (so I'm still 19 here) , I began being pursued romantically by Carlos (fake name) (29M), who was in a university club with me. He would text me all day, asking about me and my life and my interests, and began trying to take me places. I wasn't into him at all- he was kind of needy and also not attractive to me just visually-speaking (my mom did NOT approve- idk how to describe it but he was the kind of guy who was just sort of overweight and wore the same outfit every day and didn't do anything with his hair or skincare or anything, if that makes sense- he looked like he didn't care.) but I was bored and lonely so I went out with him to see a few places around the city. Eventually, his level of attention to me and my personality and his general enthusiasm for his own interests began to grow on me, and I began to feel something. So one day, he has me over to watch anime, and he starts touching my hair, and then I was like "MAYBE THIS IS IT" so I took his hand and then we ended up embracing and he kissed me. I remember it feeling like a HUGE deal- my heart was pounding and I was like, borderline aroused for some unknown reason, but I also felt disgusted at the same time, and when he kissed me I was like "NOPE, this is NOT for me, what was I thinking, this does not feel right at ALL" so then next day I explained to him we should just be friends. He didn't take it super well, and I began to feel disgusted by men in general. I asked the Carlos's ex for advice (I also knew her) but she got and told him that I had been talking shit and he completely ghosted me. NOW, this feels like such a minor thing in retrospect- a random encounter that lasted about 2 months. But at the time, I felt DEVESTATED- kept trying to apologize, explain myself, get the friendship back, etc. I was self-deprecating when I was around him, trying to show that I felt badly, but it was no use.
Then a year went by. A very fruitful year- I took classes and became more financially-independent, working jobs, doing research. During the summer, I began to develop romantic feelings for a coworker Henry (fake name) (21M) at the hookah lounge. And boy oh boy did that feel like a big deal too. I wouldn't stop talking about it to my friends- I asked him out, we went on one date before he changed his mind (which, I totally understood and respected) but it was still perpetual butterflies whenever he walked into the room and thinking about what could have been.
Then, in early November, a coworker, Marco (fake name) at my new job asked me out. We had already worked together- he's a super nice guy (22M), very handsome, very polite, with a great sense of humor. We had spent our time as coworkers goofing off and engaging in witty banter and solving problems, so the date made total sense. We talked about music theory (he is a music major, I am a classical/jazz nerd so I can keep up with him much of the time in these conversations) and about our hobbies. We went to my favorite spot in town, listened to some good jazz, and just chatted. There were no butterflies, and no mushy comments (Marco was CLEARLY not head-over-heels for me the way Carlos once was, or the way I once was for Henry. Then he asked me if we were on a date, and if I was a good kisser, and in spite of me having repeated the story to my friends over a thousand times that year about how terrible I thought my single peck with 29M was and how disgusting I found physical contact in general, I only felt vaguely intrigued and excited, so I was like "let's find out!"
We ended up making out, and he ended up feeling me up and even fingering me. The next day, although I had (a year before) found a single kiss dramatic and traumatizing, I didn't feel dramatic at all, I was simply like "wow that was nice!". I didn't think about him the way I would think all day about Henry, but I was also not displeased and very excited to see him again. Marco is a notoriously bad texter, so we did not text at all, but about a week later we met up again. He took me on a mini golf and out to eat, and we just enjoyed a lot of flirtacious banter and good conversation. When we got back to my place, we were making out and by the point where we entirely undressed, I was like 'hey, you wanna just like.... actually go for it?" It wasn't even a peak point of arousal for me- no racing heart, NOTHING, I was just really curious and wanting to try something new at that point, and I could tell that Marco wanted the same thing. So we went for it! We had real sex! It was neither great nor bad- he tried his best, didn't really understand foreplay or how to last more than a minute (he was also a virgin like me, and based on a large variety of factors, I 100% believe him) but it was fun and interesting and attractive. I liked having a physical connection with Marco- we made a good team, we had chemistry.
But then honestly I didn't think much of it. I told my best friend I lost my virginity and she was expecting some huge story and I was just like, "oh yeah it was nice!". I am, by nature, an obsessive thinker, but I wasn't panicking. It has been a week, and I honestly checked Henry's social media more times than Marco's (even though Henry has been lowkey cold to me and has nothing in common with me and is less physically attractive than Marco imo) . I haven't worried about Marco's poor texting (something that upsets me even when friends do it) and have been very nonchalant and chill about it all. I don't think about it much- it was just a nice, pleasant little experience, and I do not understand why my brain is not obsessing. Is this normal? Why did I think obsessively about the Carlos situation and the Henry situation for months on end when the BIG deal that is the Marco situation just feels like a shrug of the shoulders?

TL;DR, past vaguely-romantic situations have been a huge deal for me, but I feel nothing after losing my virginity and this concerns me.
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2021.11.28 02:57 Madbrad200 G Nino - Romeo & Juliet (R&Drill)

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2021.11.28 02:57 Masked_One1 Me and the poys

Me and the poys having a good time at forwardbase B)
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2021.11.28 02:57 Tricky_Reason Trash taste mug 420

Wondering if that person will to sell there. Didn’t have job at the time and was trying to spread out my cash until I found a job. I got job and want to know if you would sell it?
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2021.11.28 02:57 iwanttobehappy222 Feeling like I got punched in the chest

Background
My husband and I have been married for 4 years. We have a 1 year old baby together and on valentines day 2021, not even 1 month after giving birth to our first child I found out my husband was texting a prostitute and making arrangements to meet up. So this encounter didn't go through but as anyone could imagine, I WAS LIVID!!
I packed my stuff and my not even 1 month old child and I was ready to walk out. He convinced me to stay until morning and well I forgave him and here we are, Nov 2021.
I went through his phone again just now for no reason and found HUNDREDS of messages,.pictures, videos voice notes, etc from different online prostitutes. He has been using a secret app to talk to these woman for years. He is sleeping and doesn't know that I know all of this. I am so absolutely disgusted, horrified, heartbroken, and everything else you can imagine. I just want to punch him in the nuts while he sleeps but I figure it would be much better revenge to pack my stuff and my son early morning while he is sleeping and go to my parents house for a while so he can't convince us to stay. I love the guy and I know if he said sorry, I would forgive him like an idiot.
Here's the thing, we are married, have a child, a house, and cars. If I leave, how does everything get divided? Would I keep our baby until we go to court? Can he not let me back in once I leave?
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2021.11.28 02:57 JoNuttanon1994 Tales of Legendia: Best Female Characters?

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2021.11.28 02:57 LithiumToxicity Tarqua and Lucretia

There was a time when none would doubt
Lord Tarqua's love for Lucretia so devout,
Such passion as can expel all sorrows,
Raise pride that casts no shadows.
That is, till he one evening he witnessed
At a courtly gathering he rarely missed,
Lucretia exchanging a knowing smile
With a handsome dragoon, Ismail.
The episode lasted less than a minute
But Tarqua saw something amiss in it -
Once a man towards doubt begins to lean
He tilts and tilts till he utterly falls in.
Days and nights beset with alarmed fits,
Tarqua sought counsel for his frayed wits,
From a foreign gentleman said to be
A sage of sorts from around the Black Sea.
When of his present woes Tarqua relayed
The wise man of the east thus conveyed,
"Most sublime peril love is,
Mixes equally fear and bliss",
He advised cryptically as philosophers oft do,
But then, perhaps as a jest, a little tale drew,
"There's one way to confirm, I'm told,
The bearing of affection one does truly hold:
If you extract the heart and set it to flame,
It'll whisper the object of its love by name."
Alas, to such dire state Tarqua's mind fell
It could not serious from fatuous rightly tell.
Tarqua resolved to cut open Ismail's chest,
Then, put his organ therein to a fiery test.
That night the guards conatoes Ismail took
To Tarqua and hid dagger in the castle nook,
He carved open the breast entire,
Threw the bloody lump into a pyre,
To combustion leaned to hear
Hiss and sizzle but no "Lucretia".
This though Tarqua relieved
Only a momentary peace achieved,
For next day he saw a baron nearing
Lucretia too close to be endearing.
Baron's torso, too, was excavated,
Another evidentiary matter extricated.
Then there was a friendly seeming cavalier
Who met hostile reception in Tarqua's shear.
So on went murderous autopsy
With the surgeon's diligent constancy.
And each new day saw someone querying
'Have you seen so-and-so this morning?'.
The stench of accruing rotten flesh
Did even the topmost steeple splash,
Spreading nausea most relentless
To the cook, the gardners and the laundress.
Aberrant countenance Tarqua bore
Lady Lucretia could no more ignore,
T'was not a man there she did see,
But one bearing Devil's pedigree.
One night, she decided to follow
Tarqua to the subterranean hollow,
Whence night after night he went
To conduct the vile experiment.
As she entered the gore filled cell
Such sight and odour akin to hell
Struck her nerves already much frail
She collapsed like a heedless sail,
Causing an Aphrodite statue to topple
Unto her head, crushing it to strewn rubble.
When Tarqua saw Lucretia's headless body
It did not his mad proceedings unsteady;
He plucked out her heart without hesitation
Fed it to the blaze of confession.
It burned like Beelzebub's coal
And revealed nothing at all.
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2021.11.28 02:57 dr4gonr1der 5 Vreemde TikTok video’s

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2021.11.28 02:57 AntiAbortionAtheist Abortion is ableism. >>This Thanksgiving, I’m grateful for increased efforts to fight discrimination against babies with Down syndrome. In some European nations, these children are nearly extinct — not because of the advent of successful remedial measures, but because of prenatal screening<<

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2021.11.28 02:57 Jorgitoislamico WTW for something very offensive?

Just how hideous means very ugly
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2021.11.28 02:57 Monke_Strong64 Is my game glitched?

So I was playing the first game, and I was doing the Royal Physician. I got to the spot where the first ark pylon is, and normally there's an interaction wherein one of the guards yells at the thugs who are hiding, who proceed to run out and get killed by the pylon. However, when I got there, the guard who yells was dead, the normal, armored guard was walking around with his sword drawn, and the officer was just standing there normally. (btw I got all the runes and bonecharms you could get up until that point, I rode the cart to get to the door in the first section, and I looted Prattchets safe incase something I did messed it up, like how in Campbells if you open the door to Holger Square using a switch it causes Curnow and Campbell to run away instantly.)
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2021.11.28 02:57 sa2223 The author of the mod "Maximum carnage" is banned from Nexus

Yesterday Dwon410 was permanently banned from Nexus mods and his mods were all deleted. Nexus' reasoning was that he had a link to his Patreon on his Mod pages..... You know It's funny how CE0 can easily get away with breaking the TOS and Dwon410 is banned for the slightest offense on Nexus.
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2021.11.28 02:57 InstantShiningWizard When you don't deserve this kind of shabby treatment

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2021.11.28 02:57 GoodTransSub egg🎤irl

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2021.11.28 02:57 StCrumpet Suggestions for chill songs

Hey guys, i’m looking to find some more chill songs. Some examples are Opeth’s Damnation album, some of Dream Theater’s stuff, some Fates Warning, and TOOL. The songs don’t have to be slow, but definitely the vocals should be chill, preferably over a relaxed rhythm.
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2021.11.28 02:57 Efficient_Ad8015 Repost(Selling VIP Royal , 21 epic eye( 330+ eyes), 98 epic (1 is event given), 29 super epic(event given), more than 240 super rare, 2015 account! LF $200 can negotiate

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2021.11.28 02:57 MicrotechAnalysis PAP not afraid of opposing views but must rebut wrong ones 'if possible gently, but when necessary firmly': PM Lee

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2021.11.28 02:57 swagNextTuber Iran nuclear talks to restart as US emphasizes it's 'prepared to use other options' if diplomacy fails

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2021.11.28 02:57 King_Buliwyf [TOMT][DOCUMENTARY SCENE][70s maybe] Leonard Cohen being propositions by a fellow singer and politely turning her down

I saw it here a couple years back but can't find my saved link to it anymore for some reason.
Leonard is being invited by a women singer to come stay at a friend's house. She's clearly into him. He politely rebuffs her several times. She sounds British possibly.
I love this scene because... I don't know, the way they talk is all just so classic and eloquent.
Anyone know what I'm talking about?
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2021.11.28 02:57 Barleyrelevant Ex

So When we first got together, no arguments or nothing, that lasted for about 6 months. But I started to notice she talks to someone on discord, @ first I didn’t care but then I got curious so I asked her questions like how long she’s known him and if they have history.she answered every question, but I just didn’t know what to think. I’ve never really been the jealous type, but in this past relationship, for some reason I felt really jealous over little things. I started to notice I never noticed before, (mostly that I was an insecure jealous piece of shit) so I tried opening up to her but I felt so misunderstood, empty almost one sided. I mean I think she was trying. So about a year in, I start going through her phone. I know it was shitty but, I couldn’t help but feel so uncomfortable, I would get these random moods where I wondered who I could trust, and eventually I started asking myself if there was something wrong with me. Long story short, I found messages from the past (of course) but I couldn’t be mad because it was before me.I guess I was just bothered by the fact that she talked to someone in their 20s who’s had experience with females before. I mean shit he had a wife and kids, and I was just some 18 year old dude with hardly anything to offer. I began over analyzing things, asking a lot of questions simply hoping for a little reassurance. It was like I didn’t even know myself anymore. So we end up breaking up about a year and a half into our relationship, a few days later I hit her up and we get back together. So me being the piece of shit I am, I go through her phone. Only to find out that she had traded nudes with the guy she was taking to on discord the day after we broke up. I felt so stupid, so insecure, I didn’t know what to think, or what to do. Technically we were broken up so it’s not like I should have felt betrayed or something. But I felt so devastated, just typing this kind of makes me a little sad about it but it’s whatever. So we get back together, break up repeat for months and then finally break up for good (the whole thing lasted like 2 years)
Now she comes back, after a year and ofc the first thing I do is go back to her. I thought she was gonna wanna work things out but she wanted to fuck. So, me being a dumb ass, I slept with her. A month or two go by and she hits me up again. And it’s to have sex. Every time she hits me up, I genuinely think she’s changed, but it’s only sex. And the worst part about it is, i come back every time. My mom has always been the type to get into my relationships, so now she told my mom we were cool. The thing is, she wants an open relationship, or to be single and I just want to be in a regular committed 1on1 relationship. She knows this, so I told her I don’t just want to fuck, but I don’t want to be in an open relationship. And it’s hard to be friends with someone who you love. She stayed quiet for a while and I got anxiety from it so I texted her and said it doesn’t matter and not even a minute later she texted back and said “it doesn’t” I know I’m probably over analyzing it but, it matters alot to me. And I’m genuinely hurt.
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2021.11.28 02:57 regachoisiah The Weeknd - Starboy ft. Daft Punk

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2021.11.28 02:57 jackrack1721 I'm confident the news boy from Red Dead 2 was modeled after Tim Dillon.

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2021.11.28 02:57 lukrein I just recently got a 5* science awakening gem. What hero should I use it on? Or save for a different one?

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2021.11.28 02:57 HandMadejewelery MAYselect Charms “How They’re Made” | Exclusive DIY Hand Made Jewellery

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