2021.12.09 08:32 DankMemer62 Singapore Punishes Drug Offenses More Severely Than Any Other Offenses
2021.12.09 08:32 Pessimist2020 Biden administration drug czar says it's time to treat drug addiction like a chronic disease
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2021.12.09 08:32 azusfan The Cloud of Witnesses
The HISTORICAL line of faith is essential. Christians did not just make this up, nor did it ..evolve.. over millennia. There is a precise, exact, and exclusive history that satanic revisionism can only muddy with innuendo, lies, smears, well poisoning, and the hiss of, 'Hath God said?', through clenched teeth.
I am a disciple of Paul, John, Polycarp, Athanasius, Irenaeus, Luther, Augustine, Lewis, Gish, and a host of other defenders of the Faith. I see because I stand on the shoulders of giants. The chronology of Christianity is part of its power. We are surrounded by a host of witnesses, and this affirms and encourages us through the flames that we must endure.
The statements of faith, that previous generations of Believers assembled, mostly in response to deadly heresies and lies, are part of our heritage. Offshoots, tangents, and deceptions are exposed by the solemn words of our Christian forbears.
REASON.. sound exegesis and the continuity of the INTENT of the apostle's writings, HISTORY, and the records of past apologists, all combine to corroborate the Truth of the gospel message. Combined with the knowledge of God, and the indwelling Spirit (Who guides us into truth), this 'faith', becomes an undeniable fact, that mealy mouthed words from slippery eels cannot shake.
History corroborates the facts of the NT manuscripts. Christian apologists, throughout history, corroborate the biblical manuscripts. Volumes of quotes, commentaries, and exegetical expositions have affirmed, confirmed, and REAFFIRMED, the biblical texts, and no heretic from the 6th century, the 3rd century, the 19th century, or the 21st century can destroy that.
Lies, destruction, accusations, and death is all the father of lies offers. Thinking people and apologists, with any knowledge of history, can only expose the aspersions of Doubt, that these enemies of Christianity propagate. The source, in any generation, is the same. They speak from their father, who was a liar from the beginning.
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2021.12.09 08:32 thechronite11 I was driving around looking for a parking lot. My mum asked 'Is this a lot?'
2021.12.09 08:32 TemporaryCorner5688 Starting to get scared of myself (please help)
I posted this on another sub but got no replies, so I'll try here too as I'm desperate for help.
This is going to be really long (sorry in advance). So basically, I'm not diagnosed with NPD, but my psychiatrist says I have strong traits, and from what I've researched I am the definition of a covert narcissist. Also I'm dyslexic so the spelling and grammar is going to be horrible. The first bit is just background for context and not necessary to read:
Background (not super important):
2 years ago I started dating my ex boyfriend (we are both in our early 20s, I'm a female). He was really sweet, had some mental health problems, and 'fell in love' with me almost immediately. He had allot of relationship anxiety and unhealthy attachment issues, and so did I. It was both of our first relationship. We dated for a bit over a year. In this time I completely lied about everything. I pretty much reinvented myself to match someone he would want. At first I didn't really like him, but soon fell in love and I became completely obsessed with him. Our relationship was really intense and quite unhealthy, as we both had so many issues, but at its basis I really do think I loved him. I know he loved me too. So so deeply, but I could not understand why, the entire time I thought he was using me, that he was going to cheat on me, that he would realise how ugly and boring I was and end things. I was just projecting, and I was so insecure. He became my best and pretty much only friend. I loved spending time with him, I loved talking to him, just being around him made me feel safe and warm inside. He was my entire life. Now I'm starting to wonder if I actually loved him, or if it was just obsession because I had no one else and I liked the way he made me feel. I'm not sure.
I had immense relationship anxiety, but I think that allot of what I thought was 'anxiety' was just moments where I couldn't control him, or he wouldn't behave as I wanted him too. These moments where I had no control over him made me feel so powerless and anxious because I was so sure he would leave me.
He thought I was the sweetest, most honest, wonderful girlfriend ever, when in reality it was just a facade. I was super toxic and manipulative, and really good at hiding it. I would purposefully go out of my way to make up stories about guys flirting with me, made up exes, told him I had pervious relationships even if he was my first, show him pics of guys I had things with in the past that were hotter than him to make him insecure. All of this just to make him jealous and insecure. To create this image that I was hot shit and that I held the power in the relationship. I was using dating apps and talking to guys I had things with in the past throughout most of the relationship, purely for attention/ in moments when I was super anxious and thought he was cheating on me. I would always fantasise about meeting some guy that was hotter, cooler, richer than him and leaving my ex for him, breaking his heart. At its basis all the things I would do were because I was just so insecure, but wanted to feel like I had power and control over the situation. In also did them because I thought I deserved 'better', that I was superior to him and he wasn't good enough. When in reality we're both equally attractive, he has millions of friends, I have 0, he had a life outside of me, I didn't. I am a university drop out, doing nothing all day, lying to him about being in my second year of uni, and he actually graduated from uni. I was the loser. Everything was a lie. I have nothing going on for me.
I had just moved to a new city when I met him, and didn't know anyone. I had a few friends, but all of them knew a 'different' part of me, as I just mirror the people that I'm around. I was embarrassed of them and was scared that my ex would not like them or think they were 'cool' enough. So he never met any of them. I made up so many people and friends, would talk to him about people and all these luxurious parties that didn't exist just so he thought I was super popular. I also grew up in a different country, and never made friends there either (because I'm clearly just not a pleasant person and everyone irritates me after a while), but would still make people up so he thought I was this super popular person in highschool, when I was actually the lame, weirdo with no friends. It was easy to keep all of this and my family hidden, as there was lockdown. I was terrified of lockdown ending, him meeting my family or anyone I knew and find out about all my lies.
We dated for a bit over a year, until I ended up cheating on him with his brother. This happened a year ago. I had met his brother briefly once, he was older and didn't live in the same city as us. The night before I cheated, I went to a party with my ex, his brother, and some of their friends and cousins. That night I became obsessed with the brother. I felt drawn to him, like we had something that others didn't, some weird understanding. I thought I could see through him, that he was just like me (I think he has NPD too actually). The day after that night, I saw him again and kissed him. I initiated it. That night my ex wasn't there, but there were some of their friends, and obviously his brother. I was completely drunk, and on allot of drugs (was the first time in the relationship I had ever taken drugs). I can't remember allot, but apparently the way I acted, and the stuff I said made the brother and his friends realise and tell my ex that I'm a sociopath.
Background (a bit more important):
Looking back, the emotions I felt after I cheated were not normal. I don't think I felt any empathy for him. I felt allot of shame. So much shame that my mask was ripped off. That the people close to my ex saw the 'real me'. So basically all I have been doing since the cheating is trying to make my ex see me for who he thought I was, not who his brother and friends are telling him I am. I told him I would start super intensive therapy to fix myself so we could get back together. In reality my intention for starting therapy had nothing to do with me trying to fix myself, it was to do with the fact that I wanted him to think I was, so he would take me back. I put on this persona to my new therapist, to come across as super innocent, that it was all a mistake, I was the victim and he was a horrible boyfriend, that's why I cheated. I would have my ex sit in the room while I had my therapist on loudspeaker over the phone, I would feed my therapist shit, so that I knew he would reply telling me how great I was, how much improvement I had made etc. all just so my ex would hear. I completely managed to make myself the victim of the situation. Everyone pitied me. My friends, therapist, family. Even my ex would repeatedly break down crying, saying how it was his fault and how sorry he was. All of this worked for several months, my ex was still completely in love with with me. I would always tell him how we should stop talking and seeing each-other, how what I did was so fucked up, that I wanted to become a better person before we got back together. But I didn't mean any of it, it was just to see if he would fight for me. And he did. He would beg for me to stay. I was still telling him I was hanging out with all these guys so he would be jealous, still do all this manipulative shit even after I cheated. Through all this we were never officially dating again, but acting like we were (he was keeping it hidden from everyone). After a while I think that the reality of what I did hit, and he decided he wanted to properly end things. The months before he was always saying how in a few months we'd get together, that I was the one, that he was sure we would end up together as we're meant to be. Then he started saying how he didn't know if we would ever even end up together, that maybe we will, maybe we won't. That I should stop waiting for him and see other people. That it was life, and shit happens but we both have to move on. He started seeing the whole situation from a more mature place. I think his family also really ingrained the idea that I'm a sociopath in his head. We went a few months without talking, however ended up talking and seeing eachother other again, and we still do on occasion. But there's no desperation on his part anymore. He takes ages to reply, I have to literally beg him to come over, he only really talks to me or wants to see me when he's depressed or lonely. But still now I'm manipulating him. Telling him the shit that I know will make him feel guilty. I'm becoming the person that in my mind he wants me to be. Dressing how he liked me to dress, listening to the music he liked, doing hobbies he did, only making friends with people that I think he would like. I can't stop. My identity still revolves around him.
Now to the important part. A month after I cheated I did a shit tonne of psychedelics for the first time. It was horrible. The entire trip was just hallucinations telling me how I'm rotten to my core, my blood is bad, I come from a line of people who are bad. That I was born wrong. That the only way to stop hurting people, and stop the generations of evil was to kill myself. I was super freaked out after, but ignored it. A month after that I smoked allot of weed, and relived the entire experience in more detail. It made me realise that so many behaviours I have are not ok. How fucked up I was in the relationship. Then a month later I smoked again, and came to realise even more stuff. Before this I honestly thought I was a good person with good intentions lol. Around 6 months ago is when I started doing allot of research into my behaviours, joining this forum, researching about NPD etc. and I realised that this is what I have. That I lie, I manipulate, I'm a completely empty vessel, I just mirror then discard people when I don't need them anymore, I only care about myself and how I appear to others, nothing in my life or about me is real, because I live in a world of fantasies 99% of these time, I think I'm so superior when in reality I am and have nothing. When I first realised this I completely broke down. I told my mum everything (she denied it and said that she doesn't think I have NPD, that I have some bad traits but everyone does, that they don't define me. That's just how good my mask is). I started telling my therapist the truth, and even he was unsure at the beginning, but we started working on some of my behaviours. I became completely suicidal, realising that I'm the reason that my life has always been horrible and I have no one. Then I would sort of forget about it, avoid the reality of who I am and my life, go back into living in my fantasies, stop going on this forum, and so I'd be ok for a while. I kept repeating these cycles of forgetting all about NPD, and being ok in myself, and becoming obsessed with NPD, and wanting to kill myself. The thing is now when I think about the stuff I did to my ex I actually think I DO feel empathy. He was such a pure soul and I hurt him so much. I physically feel how I hurt him inside of me. I also feel horrible for my behaviours in general, to him, my family, my friends. However, I still can't stop myself manipulating him. I've for sure gotten better, but I still lie to him about so much in regards to the cheating and myself, just to preserve the mask. He's the one I do it the worst with, because the mask I present him is the strongest. I think my narcissistic tendencies definitely got worse with him, as he was so emotionally vulnerable so it made it easier. He also had so much power over me, that the urges to manipulate and mask to keep him were and are so much stronger than with other people in my life that don't have this emotional power over me.
This brings me to last week, where I started watching documentaries of criminal psychiatrists breaking down serial killers/psychopath's profiles and behaviours. It basically looked at their behaviours in questionings and trials, pointing out all the stuff they do to try and get away with the crime they committed. How they manipulate and such. And I do all the things they point out that these criminals are doing. It's exactly what I did to my ex to get away with the cheating. Everything down to the rehearsing beforehand, the facial expressions, the tone, playing the victim, being charming. Everything. It's me. Even some of their backgrounds are similar to mine. Parents that gave me everything and let me get away with everything, making me think the world owes me. And now I'm terrified that I will do something horrific one day. That I will actually truly hurt someone. Loose it and kill someone. I've never gotten violent urges really, never fantasied about hurting people, and when I hear about what these criminals did, I do feel empathy for the victims, and feel completely sick. But at the same time, when I think of what I did to my ex I feel empathy and completely sick, yet is still keep doing it. And what if I loose it one day, in the moment so blinded by anger or jealousy that I kill or hurt someone. It's doesn't even have to be so extreme. I feel like I just fuck my life up more and more every day, I'll loose everyone one day. I have also been going on the narcissistic abuse subreddit allot, and it's been fucking with me. Reading these stories and how the behaviours of the people they talk about are just like mine, realising how fucked up it is hearing from it from the other side. It brings me so much shame, and I think also empathy for the people effected. At the same time, when I read it, it makes me so anxious that my ex will realise wha I am. That he'll start therapy and his therapist will make him realise that I'm a narcissist. I keep looking back at my behaviours with my ex, making sure that I hid them well enough for him to never realise. I want to get better so bad. Stop hurting people. Have a stable life. Not constantly live in fear that someone will find out about my many lies. I don't know what to do. No matter how hard I try I feel like at it's rooted in me. I have literally always been like this, and I think I always will be, it's how I'm programmed and it scares me. I feel like I should never interact with anyone ever again to ensure I don't hurt anyone or get found out for who I truly am (my biggest fear).
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2021.12.09 08:32 throwaway5272 Tucker Carlson's Jan. 6 'Agent Provocateur' Is A Big Tucker Fan And An Amateur Cardinals Mascot
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2021.12.09 08:32 sinsin25v2 Another one from Side-Note
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2021.12.09 08:32 bitingmypillow All ready for christmas!!
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2021.12.09 08:32 Jonodrakon3 Trading Jah for 2xLo
2021.12.09 08:32 The-Bobomb-Expert Garfield needs to chill.
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2021.12.09 08:32 yananatomy Anatomical and floral embroideries
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2021.12.09 08:32 vvatxh ue5 how to use SetBrushFromTexture function?
| In unreal engine documents, SetBrushFromTexture needs "Components/Image.h" header. So I add it. But I can't use this function. Help me please.|
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2021.12.09 08:32 save2202 Mad Monkey, Blend by Tony Barrios ( Privada Exclusive) - Spicy Choco 😋 Medium-Full, rich, complex, very flavourfull, chocolade, sweet spice, coffee, little earth, musty, very smooth. Perfect costruction, exellant long aftertaste, 90min burning time. Beaty stick 👍
2021.12.09 08:32 existential_fragment Jalapeños cheese grits with popcorn shrimp
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2021.12.09 08:32 PurpleFine4935 An oversaturation of Liberty Mutual ads have become my number one reason for downloading Ad Block for my browser.
Just as stated: An oversaturation of Liberty Mutual ads have become my number one reason for downloading Ad Block for my browser. There is really nothing more to add. The commercials are intrusive and irritating. It does Liberty Mutual no good to invade my thoughts if I'm not interested in them, and now I will avoid them like the plague. I might even go with their competitors because I dislike them so much.
When will companies learn, that views, clicks, leads and engagements don't necessarily translate into sales unless the experience is positive? All these companies are so interested in ranking their videos, they forgot to see if maybe people would want their product.
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2021.12.09 08:32 TriFecta_z How many link level 10 units do you guys have?
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2021.12.09 08:32 Adamentonium Feel free to check out my channel with gaming and funny moments
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2021.12.09 08:32 SergeantRitaVrataski Check again webhead. The ad said 29 minutes.
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2021.12.09 08:32 1enox A request to Verstappen before his F1 title showdown with Hamilton
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2021.12.09 08:32 JerSucks 211209 LoveMaybelline Twitter Update with Yuna - Happy Birthday Yuna❤️
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2021.12.09 08:32 Abject-Bank7320 2021 WRX premium ticking noise?
Noticed this after a drive home , any idea? https://youtube.com/shorts/31W9vqUzJV8?feature=share
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2021.12.09 08:32 NabeelaTheArtist Physical Art NFT - Hand Drawn, 3D Layered Colored Pencil Drawing
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2021.12.09 08:32 Separate-Can4689 For fans who love the iconic design of the tape-cassette format, and want to see their classic mix-tapes freed from the dusty box in the loft, the Tunetables precision-cut foam insert can be supplied to display either all tapes or a mixture of tapes alternating with their respective outer cases...
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2021.12.09 08:32 rikola2 Going to an event, what will take place beforehand?
Says gates open at 4pm and food at 4:30, I think only for VIPs. So as a regular ticket holder what usually goes on until the 6pm supposed start time?
Do you guys advise going at 4pm or maybe around 5:30 ?
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2021.12.09 08:32 ChirrupChirrup Should I go for a promotion at work while starting a business?
I work full-time as a content designer and I’m in the process of starting a new business that helps underperforming websites improve their UX.
The money and the job are good, relatively low-stress and healthy work-life balance, giving me the headspace to work on my business.
But there are two new roles that have become available, both a pay band above what I’m on now (~£11k more a year). People are egging me on to go for it as it’s ‘more safe than self-employment.’ That aside, I’m drawn to it as I’d like to go part-time some time in the future as my business expands, and therefore the drop in pay will roughly meet what I earn now in a band lower.