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2021.12.07 18:47 IllustriousEagle7 I'm broke, but someone should buy this and report back...

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2021.12.07 18:47 wmartanon Goodbye Walmart - Promoting myself

After 4 years, working just about every area of the store, I am leaving to work at home with a mail order pharmacy. Started as a casher, 2 months in became electronics. Worked sporting goods, hardware during that time. At 11 months I became 1&82 dm (where I also helped keep grocery caught up with their section work, zoning and price changes). My bins were always empty, including clip strips, so I was helping other departments most of the time. Then at 3 years I moved into the pharmacy when I wasn't selected to stay as a team lead because I was out with covid and had surgery, recovering for about 6 months. Enjoyed my time here, especially my current pharmacy team, but I'm looking forward to being able to work from home.
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2021.12.07 18:47 sydneebmusic Calling On Lazer

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2021.12.07 18:47 alice-michelle Please help me find this dystopian book

I am trying to find a book I barely remember but I know it’s an old book at least 40 years old. The cover was white and there was a teenage girl in a bombed out city and then she finds a teenage boy and then they find a baby and have to survive in this dystopian world. That’s all I remember.
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2021.12.07 18:47 BusinessPassenger893 Why humans can’t live for hundreds of years?

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2021.12.07 18:47 throwthisshitoutnao Payment due date and financial aid

Can I just wait for my spring 2022 financial aid to cover my payment even though it’s due tomorrow?
Also, if anyone knows when they disbursement date for spring 2022 financial aid package I would love to know.
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2021.12.07 18:47 kylekal19 Power Meter for Grizl GRX

What power meter are people running on their grizls? I've got one coming in with GRX and was planning on a 4iiii left side, but I'm not sure about clearance issues
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2021.12.07 18:47 thedetective10 Bicep Injury

Hey there. So I injured my bicep while doing pullups 15 days ago, it was a pinching pain and hurt whenever I flexed my arm or overused it. I've been trying to rest it but I also don't want to miss out on pullups and other exercises. The issue is that even after all this time my arm doesn't feel comfortable if I try do a pullup. Should I just avoid pullups for a few more weeks or should I go seek help?
Any advice will be greatly appreciated!
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2021.12.07 18:47 _D_E_C_K_A_R_D_ Why is it not reciprocal?

I have a serious quotation, so please don’t go off on me. I’m male, straight, and I don’t use pronouns. I’m not homophonic, transphobic, or anything else phobic. I respect anyone being whatever they want to be.
My question is, when I say I don’t use pronouns, why would you not just say, that’s fine, I respect that? It seems like I’m expected to respect you, but not get any back?
Again, please take this as a genuine question from someone who thinks differently and would like to understand.
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2021.12.07 18:47 MozerfuckerJones Hugely popular Twitch streamer + OnlyFans creator Amouranth coming to Centerfold?

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2021.12.07 18:47 MVDE_15 Tales Of The Reaper II: Saga Of A Sinner | Part 4: Lust

Tales Of The Reaper II: Saga Of A Sinner | Part 4: Lust Oh boy, the one I’ve been hyping for a while now. After that Junior Heavyweight championship loss, I went on hiatus. It was meant to be just like now, a regular break for my exams, nothing more. But then stuff happened, stuff in my personal life that really meant I wasn’t fully back at 100% until like BTE III. I won’t spoil but I must warn you all, this is not for the faint of heart or for those that care a lot about me. Because I’m taking you through the darkest period in my life. No Jaeger here, no FBE, this is the man behind the screen talking.
Also, I said the same in chapter 2 but it goes infinitely more here. I am fine now. I won’t lie and say I’m completely fine now, I still carry the scars from this. For example with confidence issues, Imposter syndrome and the occasional bout of dark thoughts. But I’m good, trust me. And if any of you aren’t feeling okay mentally, I’d really like to ask you to immediately stop reading and go talk to someone. Can be someone you personally know, can be someone in FBE, heck can be me. Talking to people is what got me through this, talking to people is what saved my life. And it will help you too. Trust me on that. Anyway, let’s finally get into this.
Chapter 4: Stranger To Myself
Theme: Lust ( although it should really be hurt but Seven Deadly Sins and all that )
Not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever. Sometimes they are only there long enough to teach you the lessons that you needed to learn. Unknown
Soundtrack: Megadeth - Tornado Of Souls
Honestly, I could’ve picked a million different songs for this. Heck, I could’ve made an entire playlist that reminds me of this time in my life. But this is the one that always transports me right back into it. This is the one that played a pretty big role in the story. But anyway, let’s get right into this shit. Grab your popcorn, grab your tissues, and lock in your seatbelts. I’m about to take you on a ride.
Mi vida no es coincidencia, todo es 'Destino'.
Pensé que puedo realizar mi sueño con seguridad.
La realidad no es tan fácil.
Por fin logré la gloria, pero en realidad el progreso no era como se esperaba.
Pero necesitaba seguir luchando.
Por fin encontré mi "lugar" y "parejas".
Ahora es mi tiempo.
Ahora puedo decir con certeza.
Mi historia aún no ha terminado.
Mi estilo de vida está en 'Destino'.
That’s a little thing I wrote the first time I tried writing this. Some of you may recognize it, some of you won’t. But yes, this is my second try. The first try was in the summer, I was going to make it an entire series that covered a lot more than I’m about to cover now. It was going to have a multitude of characters, all with fake names and stuff. But honestly fuck all that. Hi, I’m Michael, the man behind Jaeger. The wound was still too fresh that summer, but now that I’m only left with scars, it’s about time I do this. No more wasting your time, let’s get right into the story.
Ironically, this starts with one of you guys. December 30th 2020 I believe it was. It was late at night, close to like 11 PM, I had exams in about 6 days, and I had no business in staying up. But here I was chatting away with one of you guys. I had gotten to know that person on a bit more personal level, and they were having dark thoughts of their own. So we got to talking, and let me tell you, that was probably the first time in my life I was genuinely scared. they had it bad, I’m talking on the edge of grabbing a knife and start hurting themselves bad. I had barely known them for a couple of days and here I was trying to talk them out of hurting themselves or what I believed at the time to be suicide.
I’ll be the first to say I was shaking like a leaf. I stayed up for like 5 hours. You’ll hopefully notice by now that it was four AM. And that’s when I noticed something. A couple of hours before that I had roughly let someone know that I was busy with something. She had messaged me for something about Uni and me telling her to wait must’ve given her a hint about what was going on. I had gotten to know her in University, but it had always been just about Uni up until that moment exactly. Because her staying up until 4 AM just to be there for me made me see her in a different light if you get what I mean. It’s that moment that made us grow really close. We basically became best friends.
Everyone thought we were a couple because that’s exactly how we acted. I always said we were a couple in everything but feelings, but that feeling part is something I’ve reconsidered about a million times on both sides. Were there feelings from her side, from my side? I never knew what love was or what it meant, still don’t to this day so it could very well be possible. But anyway we studied together all throughout exams, towards the end we’d frequently start to study less and less and cuddle more and more. You might be thinking, Michael you idiot you promised us a dark and sad story this sounds like a romantic movie. But I’m getting there.
However, there were already some hints that I might have been a bit blind at the time. So one thing you all should know about me is that I have autism. And from when I was young I would hide that. I basically decided that who I was and what I wanted didn’t matter, I was weird and people wouldn’t want to know me. Instead, I just was what people wanted me to be. I decided to let other people write my personality instead of being myself. Now, this is relevant because this was the time I was really discovering myself if you get what I mean. Bar one other person, we’ll get to her later, I was really being myself for the first time. She knew this because I had told her so. And instead of being accepting and stuff, she decided to treat me like a project. Always telling me what I should improve on, how I should be different and stuff. of course, I didn’t notice at the time, but looking back, it was coincidentally with her that I never felt myself. Actually, I should rephrase that, she made me feel 10 times worse in hindsight, she made me feel like I was not good enough.
But now it seems
I'm just a stranger to myself
And all the things I sometimes do
It isn't me but someone else
( From Iron Maiden - Wasted Years )
Another thing she always did was maybe even worse. She had the uncanny ability to twist and turn everything so it was always my fault. I’ve lost count of the number of times I have apologized. But yeah in hindsight she really was a manipulative bitch.
Anyway, after exams, I took her on vacation to the coast where my grandparents had an apartment. It was just the two of us so you can see where this was going. Details are unnecessary but here is where I feel like I made my first big mistake. She insisted she didn’t have any feelings for me. On one hand, I didn’t really believe her. On the other hand, it didn’t matter to me. I would still treat her like a queen because that’s just how I am. So yeah that was a solid vacation, and after that everything went smoothly. This kept on for about a month, with me still oblivious as hell to all the red flags she was throwing up. But when the school year started up again, that’s when it went pretty horribly wrong.
First of all, two things I should mention. 1. This is gonna sound like you shouldn’t know but it’s necessary for context. She was always sort of teasing me with all the romantic and intimate stuff. We were in her eyes just FWB’s ( I always treated her like my girlfriend so I always consider that a relationship ). But even with the benefits, it was like she was always dangling me on the edge. She was weird in the sense that she wanted me to not want it, that’s what turned her on. So yeah let’s just say I was getting pretty frustrated. but then more importantly 2. She always said that since we were FWB’s, we could always immediately end it if we wanted to date or stuff with someone. So I always felt like I was on borrowed time, I knew I was in a race against the clock and I wanted to maximize my time. And this will be really important.
I had at the time slowly gotten into more fights with the people I cared about. I slowly started seeing my other friends less, borderline ignoring them because I wanted to meet up with her to maximize my time. I was getting more rebellious with my parents because she didn’t have a relationship with either of hers and I started drawing comparisons where I shouldn’t. I had this fake world where I would run off with her and everything would be okay, yes she wanted to move into an empty apartment that her parents still owned and wanted me there with her, tell me again she didn’t have any feelings. That place was also our regular meeting spot for anyone wondering. But anyway about the end of February, I’m talking like 20th, she dropped the bomb on me.
She had really driven up the intensity with a hobby of hers which was doing background acting in movies. She was doing shoots almost bi-daily at this point. She was skipping class for them ( remember this ) and she still needed more time like a drug addict. So she came to me and basically came to me with the following message. “ I wanna do more shoots and I want to focus on Uni more. So I’m going to have to see you way less or even have contact with you way less. expect it to be like once per month or once per two months. “ Normally I would say well fair enough but the way she said it irked me. It didn’t sit right with me. First of all, I straight up said I thought she was lying about it being about Uni. I knew damn well it was to do more shoots. then secondly, if you remember from previously I already felt like I was on borrowed time and now my time had been cut into like 1/30th. And lastly, after being forced to go from more than daily contact to that, she just expected me to be okay with it from that moment. No transition period, no argument, nothing. I was cutting into her personal freedom, so I had to be cut off basically.
At that moment all I said was that I needed some time to digest this. But it was visible that I was pissed. I felt like a toy thrown away in the trash because she had had enough of it. I felt dejected. And I had decided that I was going to prove to her that she was wrong to do so, by giving her exactly what she wanted. I was going to basically act like she didn’t exist. If I was to be a toy thrown away, then she wouldn’t get to take it out of the trash when she felt like it.
I'm never enough
You bleed me dry, using me up
Dissatisfied and used
Another key to the empty spot in you
( From Slipknot - Nero Forte )
So I did, next class we had together I deliberately went to sit a good distance away from her. If Uni was so important to her I wasn’t going to be a distraction. And when she came to me during the break, I was cold, only gave extremely short answers, and acted like I barely acknowledged she was there. I let it be known I was pissed. I thought she would reconsider, and I would be able to recover in time. But yeah that made it 10 times worse.
I tried to solve it not once but twice by basically giving up. But from that moment on she clamped up. I had basically triggered her flight or fight response, and she clamped. Barely could say a word to her, and everything I tried to do to compromise she was uncoöperative as hell. It was like she was happy to let this drag whilst it killed me inside. And that’s really what this entire story is about, signals. The signals she sent to me, how I thought she felt about me and how she made me feel. that’s what this was all about.
Because this is where the real stuff starts. The hell that was March. All because of one thing. So like February 27th, yes this all happened in a week, she gave me a call. Basically, there’s some mysterious reason, something to do with me giving her too much stress. But she basically had to cut off all contact with me for at least a month ( although at that time I believed it was three ). And I kid you not, it felt like my world came crashing down. This fight was already dragging me down super hard, and now this pushed me into a real depression.
First of all, who does shit like this? Like it’s basically a restraining order against me. Because she made it very clear that if I didn’t do this it was game over on everything. This was the only way there was going to be something to salvage. So, I did, I said I would do it, whatever it took I was going to sacrifice myself for this. But in hindsight, I should’ve ended it right then and there, my life would be so different if I did, but aye Todo Es Destino is what they say.
But what really bugged me is this mystery reason why this was necessary. I felt like it was my right to know if I was going to do this. I vividly remember being in tears in that call just repeating: “Why are you doing this to me, why are you punishing me like this. “ over and over. I felt like that was so disrespectful to me. But on I pushed because at this point I had alienated so many people that I felt like I had no choice. So I ended the call, and my month of torture began.
What exactly happened day by day isn’t really that important. It was basically the worst month of my life. I started really slacking on classes, I barely ate or slept, crying myself to sleep every night. And I never felt an ounce of happiness that time. If I ever had contact with someone it was either little irrelevant stuff or it was about what she was doing to me. It was absolute depression she pushed me in all because of her stupid little problem.
Talking about that problem, I was theorizing all the time about what it could be. Could she be in some serious shit and should I be there for her? but no it’s about me and about stress. Was I harming her? Or was it that she had realised she was in too deep. She had caught feelings and it scared the piss out of her so she went for the nuclear option. That’s the theory I was working with, the two people ( I only told two people because the rest I basically didn’t want them to worry about me so I stayed silent ) I talked to believed the same, but later on, she denied it quite angrily. I felt pretty sure she was bullshitting but aye she was throwing it away not my problem. And here’s where I have to shout out one person.
I would use her real name but that feels wrong. Feels like I should respect her privacy and her consent more. So I’m going to refrain. But you know exactly who you are, and thank you so much for carrying me through this time in my life. I can 100% say guaranteed I wouldn’t be alive without that person ( that’ll become clearer in a minute but let’s just run with it ). So thank you, from the bottom of my heart. You are the light that carried me through those dark days. Te amo mi amiga.
I had considered quitting many times. But here’s the catch. There should’ve been no reason that I should be torturing myself like this. I should’ve quit on her from the beginning. But I kept fighting. I kept battling because I was more scared of what would happen if I didn’t. I knew that if I was the one to quit on her I would never forgive myself. And where did I go from there? I had nothing remember? Nothing except that one friend I was bothering way too much. She was here now because she knew I needed her but this wouldn’t last forever. So what then? That’s what I feared so I stayed with it, hoping to salvage something in the future.
I’m not going to go into detail further about that month, that March because it was monotone as fuck. Every day was the same, every day was just a struggle to find something to do that would distract me from all the anger and the sadness and the questions I had in my mind. Not that it worked of course, but every day I would try. But now is the time where we go from the worst month of my life to the worst day of my life. March 27th 2021. For having a verbal restraining order against me for no reason whatsoever, I made it pretty damn far. But this is where something changed. Let me explain.
This was all my first year of university, and I hadn’t been able to make many friends during the year. Another reason why I succumbed myself to this. But we both did have one mutual friend. She had always told me that I should’ve quit on her from the beginning, and if you ever read this you were so damn right. But anyway since she was my only way to some information, so I tried what I could. And whilst she always made clear that she wasn’t going to be my messenger. But I did get something out of it. It was something I had known for a long time. This was all for absolutely nothing. Let me explain with a bit of context first.
Because this is when I discovered how she had been this entire month. I had always had the belief that this month had been as bad for her as it had been for me. Although I had seen through her Instagram that she had been on countless more shoots ( so much for that focusing on University excuse ). But that belief I had was always more a bit of hope. Because what I found out that day was something that I had known somewhere deep down. And I quote. “ She has felt so free and destressed this month. She has gotten to do so many shoots and meet so many beautiful people. It’s been the happiest time of her life. “
Sincerely, what the actual fuck. Didn’t all this start because she had a problem? Doesn’t seem like much of a problem to me. But anyway I had given up on figuring out that mystery. I’ll just take the disrespect of not being told and keep it moving. What I actually was really pissed/sad about is the fact that this is all seemingly for fucking nothing. I’m out here holding myself back and putting myself through a fucking depression because she doesn’t want to solve issues. Instead, she just runs away, puts me on a fucking ultimatum, which is a verbal restraining order or just blow it all up. And now I discover that while I struggled, go against everything I feel and stand for just for her, she’s having a fucking month-long party. Everything that started this whole fight is apparently based on one massive lie. And at that point, I’d had enough. I was well and truly done. The one thing I absolutely demand from people around me is respect, and this is the respect I get from her? As her fucking best friend, who’s done everything for her for the last four months? She didn’t deserve me, I deserved better. I wasn’t gonna stand for her fakeness and her disrespect anymore. It’s like that one piece of information made me see who she really was instead of this illusion I had created for myself.
Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been, belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself by yourself, stay away from me
( From Pantera - Walk )
At that point, I didn’t even want to message her anymore. If she ever picked up contact again she better come with a damn good apology. But anyway I didn’t really do anything about it. I was just going to distract myself, try to make the people I care about, my real friends, happy as much as I can, and hopefully fight this depression. But the dark thoughts kept flowing in my mind. What did I do to deserve this? Why was I so blind? Why do I even bother anymore? But most importantly, why do I still keep caring about her and why did I know that if she came back I would instantly forgive her because that’s just who I am?
I cry when angels deserve to die
( From System Of A Down - Chop Suey )
This takes me to the 27th, that day I was talking about earlier. And honestly, this is rough for me to write. Those dark thoughts had completely taken over, and they had made me reconsider every single relationship I had. I’m not that close with my parents, I and my brother hate each other ( that’s a whole different story ) and to my friends, I noticed I was becoming a hindrance more than a benefit. A negative more than a positive. Because that one friend I was giving that shout-out to earlier, she had to suffer with me. She had to be there for me because without her I was going to commit. Without her, I had nothing and at that point why not just end the pain. But anyway she did it without complaints because she knew I needed it. But we both knew this wouldn’t last. I knew that one day I would have to “let her go''. So I was already getting depressed over that fact. But then something happened that basically broke me.
It all started with an innocent enough Instagram story. Just a screenshot of my Spotify app playing Chop Suey with the music added right as they go into the hook for the final time. At face value, pretty innocent. But because the first line they sing is: “Trust in my self-righteous suicide. “, yeah if you knew what was happening you got the message. And apparently so did she. She then posted a story of her own basically calling me out with a quote, but she was really saying that I was exaggerating and that I should just not care so much. We went back and forth with it until she eventually caved and messaged me. That’s funny, right? After all of this, she messaged me. This conversation went so many ways, with me basically letting everything out. I got angry, so angry. Not even for what she was doing to me. No, I was angry at what she was doing to that one friend I have mentioned quite often. Not only did she have to suffer as well as me because of that bitch, no she had begun the only lifeline I had as her messenger. She had had some things to say when I “acted up” or if I asked too many questions. But yeah I got extremely angry. Then I got sad, and I practically got to begging for this torture to end. ( Yes, still ashamed but aye I was a broken man at that point. ) Do you know what she said? “ I’d rather just end this all, I want what this month has been forever. “ Of course I’m paraphrasing but you get the message. Game over.
In hindsight, I should’ve done it myself. I should’ve quit on her long ago, but especially at that moment, I should’ve left it all behind me. But instead, I got my door thrown shut. I knew this was going to happen but having it confirmed did something to me. And I hate to say it but I really started considering suicide at that moment. I obviously didn’t do it but I got damn close. I needed someone to talk me down, to basically save my life. And luckily I still had one friend left in life. Mi amiga, goddamn I love that girl ( and if you’re reading this, no it’s not what you think. It’s more like family )
But anyway, she convinced me to talk to one of those anonymous chat rooms. Not really anonymous because the first thing I said was my name, but that talk did really help me however much I didn't want to do it in the first place. I had to be convinced by mi amiga ( I’m going to start using that name from now ). With hindsight, I can say that that talk was actually really refreshing. They basically made it very clear I dodged a massive bullet. I was free from my chains of misery ( that’s another song right there ). I had been stuck in an emotionally abusive relationship ( her words not mine, but goddamn it felt good to get all my feelings validated ). And I should be happy that this ended. It was not like all was good in the world, I still had a gigantic fight left ahead of me. But for the first time, I had a goal in life. Go out into the world, be me, and make new friends. What seemed to be impossible to me before, that chat had convinced me I could do it. But not only two days later, she came crawling back, talking about how I deserved better than what she had done to me and that maybe we could make it work, tentatively become friends again. And like the dumb idiot I am, I forgave her. And this is where act two begins.
Lost in a dream, nothing's what it seems
Searching my head for the words that you said
Tears filled my eyes as we said our last goodbyes
This sad scene replays of you walking away
My body aches from mistakes
Betrayed by lust
We lied to each other so much
That in nothing we trust
Time and again she repeats "Let's be friends."
I smile and say "Yes"
Another truth bends, I must confess
I try to let go, but I know we'll never end 'til we're dust
We lied to each other again
But I wish I could trust
How could this be happening to me?
I'm lying when I say 'Trust me'.
I can't believe this is true...
Trust hurts.
Why does trust equal suffering?
( From Megadeth - Trust )
I should make something very clear here as well. Another reason why I felt so suicidal was that I had genuinely come to hate myself. I hated the person I was, the person she had made of me. I had changed so much, and it was all for the worse. I’m not lying when I say that every day from when this story started until like 2-3 months ago I just wished I could go back to who I was, that I would’ve never met her. But I couldn’t. This is who I had become, and I had to live with that. It’s crazy for a villain to discover that he’s actually the villain in this story. I guess it’s just another testament to how manipulative she could be.
If act one was like a psychological horror movie, act two is a full-on slasher. I’ve for sure lost count of the number of fights I had with her from that day on. Because spoiler alert: Even though I said I forgave her and believed it at that moment, in actuality I never really did. I had for myself always set that I would always listen to her, a courtesy she never gave me. But I would only give her a second chance if she showed she had learned some things. And yeah she definitely did not. She didn’t even want to because she would “never change for anybody”. Do I even need to say more? You all can guess how this went to shit. I had this constant anger in me and at the slowest hint of argument I would boil over. There was one really bad one that brings me to the end of it all. Storytime with Michael.
Apparently, she had a friend who for some reason lived in a closed institution. They had run away and she was sheltering him. She came to me because she was stressed about it all and she knew I would be there because that’s just who I am. She was doubting herself on this and needed some moral support and some validation that what she was doing was right. But like Dana White’s infamous quote I only had one thing to say. “That’s fucking illegal”. Because it was and heck I wasn’t going to visit her in jail ( there’s a small sentence for sheltering an escapee ). But yeah that made her blow up. Fun times those were.
I should highlight something unrelated now. My quest to make new friends. That professional she had all but promised me I would be able to make them if I just put in the effort. And this is where the second shout-out must go out. Through a Univerity task, I met a young lady who made me believe again. She gave me hope that one day I would be happy again. She was extremely kind, we were into some similar things ( mostly System Of A Down, we’re both massive fans ) and she genuinely liked me for who I am, something not many people can say. She’s since then been one of my closest friends. It’s not been easy for her, at times I’ve been awful to her because of lingering scars and how I’ve changed. But she’s always pulled through with me. So for that, I want to thank her and also apologize because goddamn it’s been rough on her. I’ve been rough on her. Lord knows she would be better off without me but I’m not going to go into that. I’ve learned that that’s not my choice to make, if people choose to be friends with me it’s because they genuinely believe I’m good for them. Doesn’t matter whether I think they’re wrong or not. But I do try to be as positive for everyone as I can, it’s all I ever wanted in life. So I hope I am a positive and I’m sorry if I’m not
And now the final fight before I decided to finally blow it all up. Out of nowhere my mother potentially had cancer ( seems like life wasn’t finished with me ) and of all people, I was going to meet up with her and she was going to take my mind off of things. But from the start, I could feel that the vibe was off. I felt from her that she didn’t really care all that much and that she was only here because she felt she had to or because she could feel good about herself afterwards or hold it over my head. But it was that day that made me decide I wanted out. Here’s how that happened.
We were really already done at this point, we were constantly fighting, and we were poisonous to each other. But just like the madness began with social media stories, I ended it with one. Because when she posted this
I had had it with her hypocrisy and decided to give a cheeky little response. I had decided that for once I was going to take control of this, I was going to make the decisions, I was going to put the final nail in the coffin. And the rest is history.

I absolutely did a lot of things wrong in this. Everything about this is wrong, but now that I've recovered I’ve come to some conclusions. First of all, this is a scar I’m going to carry for the rest of my life. Almost literally, when everything was still good I went shopping with her and bought matching chains. Mine was a cross but with the bottom pointy like a knife. For me, it now represents the knife she plunged into my heart, but also the lessons I learned. How I should always respect myself and how I should always think about what makes me happy first. What’s good for me should always be my first thought. Selfishness is something I’ve always despised and something I would never be. But there’s a healthy level of selfishness that I needed to see and start allowing myself. But that in general is the biggest lesson I learned in this story. Everything happens for a reason, everything that happens to you has a purpose. Whether it is to teach you some valuable lessons like it had for me. Whether it is to throw your life into a new direction or whether it is to show you who your real friends are, who will be there for you. Trust me when I say that Todo Es Destino and everyone will one day get their moment. Get their happiness.
I should also briefly mention. I have painted her here in a very bad light and it’s very likely not the whole truth. She also has a side of this story and you guys only got mine. So everyone that reads this and knows who this is, don’t go asking her questions about it. It’s all in the past and it should stay there, for both of us. This was the story I’ve been promising for months now. The story I’ve been hyping up for a long ass time. I’ll see you all next time where we again pick up the story of Jaeger. Take care everyone.
Ladies and gents, we're still alive
By the skin of our teeth, now it's killing time
Angel in our pocket, Devil by our side
We ain't going nowhere, 'cause heroes never die
( From Megadeth - Blood Of Heroes )
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2021.12.07 18:47 TheTrueTylerDurden Vst external hard drive

So Everytime I go into fl studio I have to go to manage plugins and reload them into the DAW? That’s crazy……
I just bought a 2 TB SSD to replace my the 225GB that comes with the laptop. When I switch it should I keep all my vst into the external harddrive or load everything into the computers 2TB SSD card
Also was thinking of buying a 2 TB SDD external drive since the external drive that I have now is a HDD and it’s slow not really slow but not like a SSD.
I just went from omnisphere to Komplete and I’m like wtf is this lmao… I’m deff reading the manual.
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2021.12.07 18:47 ILoveFoodandNetflix NB4NB lets see where things go, NB4NB was not an option

Hey im a 36 amab nonbinary individual looking for another NB individual to get to know better via chat. Im a kinky nerd lol, I am a writer for a living, I love video games, board games. Watching a good movie during a stormy night. Reading to candle light. Cuddling can be so intimate and romantic. I am a very laid back guy that can enjoy a beer at the bar or a lazy day at the beach. Camping is something I love and I don't do enough of it. I am a nerd and sporty, I love watching lord of the rings or football. Hopefully we can chat and see where things go. Feel free to send me a DM :)
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2021.12.07 18:47 Tdud0212 Todays pickup

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2021.12.07 18:47 ChefCurrySauce Driving to the Basket - Episode 74: Pain

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This episode features an exasperated discussion about the manner in which the team has been coached thus far in season, talks Jerami Grant's future with the team, and praises Cade Cunningham.
Please share your thoughts on the episode! As always, feedback and suggestions are much appreciated. Ideas for content of future episodes are also welcome.
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2021.12.07 18:47 chaz364 Mason mount’s new tattoo

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2021.12.07 18:47 BiliDaliDali Why aren't they a lot of people targeting the foreigner company.

Marketers in the USA, there are so many brands outside the USA, most of them selling their products on Amazon. Take a look at the trademark and find those companies who has decent size and you would be surprised to see that a lot of them don't even have a social media presence in the USA.
Giving the nature of language and cultural discrepancy, this is just a untapped pool of leads.
I mean, as long as you find somebody speaking their language and just do the social media maintenance + website combo at $100 a month. Wouldn't that be worth?
And then vice versa, help USA brand creating a off-shore presence.
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2021.12.07 18:47 DrHerb98 Photo of the stage setup/crowd before the show at Tampa Stadium April 24, 1977.

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2021.12.07 18:47 RedPacketSecurity Cobalt Stike Beacon Detected – 119[.]188[.]210[.]134:6666

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2021.12.07 18:47 Hoppss Are there any updates on this? Did the scientists suffer concussions?

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2021.12.07 18:47 bitlag Curtis learns about the meth table fees

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2021.12.07 18:47 aluna3126 i wouldn’t say im that obsessed with them

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2021.12.07 18:47 Ruggitt Pokeloot/Bossloot config?

I'm setting up the config for a private server for me and a couple friends, and I'm wondering if there's the ability to alter the drop rates for specific items from pokeloot/bossloot pools? In specific, I'd like to greatly reduce the odds of rare candy & master balls as I believe it makes the game become stale much faster than if they were otherwise rarer. There was an option for rare candy odds from boss Pokémon but other than that I'm clueless. Thanks in advance.
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2021.12.07 18:47 Danoh04 What all do I need for outdoor grounding?

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